Regret. Hindsight. Foresight. What could have been if you had done it differently, or never at all. Thats what we'll never know -- and its what kills me. If I had made my choices for different reasons, where would I be now? Would things be better? Worse? Would it have changed lives? As much as you can try to live life for the moment and with no regrets, sometimes they sneak up on you. They hit you where it hurts, and its not fair. Looking back it's easy to see where you went wrong, where you messed up, where you should have turned the other way and simply let go. But it wasn't that easy at the time. How could you have known who you were impacting? How could it have been possible to guess where those choices would carry you? Foresight is foggy, fate can be cruel. Every action has an equal reaction; a consequence. And consequences are not always easy to accept. Coming to terms with yourself is harsh. Realizing what you did and having to look around and see how it affected others hurts. There comes a time when all you can do is let go completely, and hand it over to fate. Giving up control is tough. To watch the world go by without being able to do anything about it is agonizing. But it's what you have to do. All you can do is learn from your mistakes: forgive and forget. What's done is done. When you can close your eyes at night knowing that you feel good about what you did that day and that you did the best you could have done, that is when you truly are at peace. When you know in your heart that today you were true to yourself and that the decisions you made were honest and right and you made them for you, that is serenity. I work for that every single day. Sometimes it happens, sometimes it doesnt. But that's life for you. All you can do is take it as it comes at you - somtimes day by day, sometimes second by second. Living for the moment, singing jingle bells at the crosswalks, laughing often, and forgiving fast are the things that make life worth it. There are some things I would give anything for to go back and be able to change, maybe go about them a different way. But I can't. At times it's hard to accept, but it's the truth nevertheless. It's something you have to learn to deal with. Dwelling on what could have been will not change what happened. It's done.
Friday, April 10, 2009
onward and upward.
Regret. Hindsight. Foresight. What could have been if you had done it differently, or never at all. Thats what we'll never know -- and its what kills me. If I had made my choices for different reasons, where would I be now? Would things be better? Worse? Would it have changed lives? As much as you can try to live life for the moment and with no regrets, sometimes they sneak up on you. They hit you where it hurts, and its not fair. Looking back it's easy to see where you went wrong, where you messed up, where you should have turned the other way and simply let go. But it wasn't that easy at the time. How could you have known who you were impacting? How could it have been possible to guess where those choices would carry you? Foresight is foggy, fate can be cruel. Every action has an equal reaction; a consequence. And consequences are not always easy to accept. Coming to terms with yourself is harsh. Realizing what you did and having to look around and see how it affected others hurts. There comes a time when all you can do is let go completely, and hand it over to fate. Giving up control is tough. To watch the world go by without being able to do anything about it is agonizing. But it's what you have to do. All you can do is learn from your mistakes: forgive and forget. What's done is done. When you can close your eyes at night knowing that you feel good about what you did that day and that you did the best you could have done, that is when you truly are at peace. When you know in your heart that today you were true to yourself and that the decisions you made were honest and right and you made them for you, that is serenity. I work for that every single day. Sometimes it happens, sometimes it doesnt. But that's life for you. All you can do is take it as it comes at you - somtimes day by day, sometimes second by second. Living for the moment, singing jingle bells at the crosswalks, laughing often, and forgiving fast are the things that make life worth it. There are some things I would give anything for to go back and be able to change, maybe go about them a different way. But I can't. At times it's hard to accept, but it's the truth nevertheless. It's something you have to learn to deal with. Dwelling on what could have been will not change what happened. It's done.
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