final thoughts...

some people think im crazy. others think im stupid.
what we had will never be stupid, maybe a little crazy, yes. but only because we were crazy about each other.
i dont want to live my life with regrets. no matter how much i tell myself that i regret being with you, it will never be true. i need to, more than anything, be true to myself.
i loved you. but ive made myself realize that youre not worth all of the hurt ive put myself through.
no one will ever take away my respect for myself. i will always come first, no matter who i fall in love with, or who i want to spend the rest of my life with. im 16. i have my entire life ahead of me, and i dont want to live that life with regrets. you werent a regret, you were an eye opening experience.
i will always have feelings for you, i will always cry for you when you mess parts of your life up, i will always think of you, and i will always have your best interests up front.
but im not going to live my life thinking "what if". what if we stayed together? what if we never dated? im not going to think of the worst. we shared amazing, and awful times together. we went through alot.
to be respected by others, you first need to respect yourself. and you are stuck in a cycle of disrespect right now. and i will NOT be a part of that.
im happy with my choices, and its going to stay like that.
my heart will never let you go, but my mind has already been there.