4-way-stop

this is where i'm at. a four way stop.
i could go forward, into something new. something i've never done before, something that would scare the shit out of me.
or, i could go left. i can see where i'm headed if i go left, but not where the road ends up. i know where i'm going, but not what i'll pass on the way there.
or i could go right. right is similar to left; i can see where i'm turning, i know where i'm going, but, yet again, i dont know where it will take me.
finally. i could back it up. i can go back somewhere safe. i can fall back on a place i've been before and where i know exactly what will happen. everything will be predictable and i'll have the majority of control. no risks, no unknowns.
so, you see, i seem to be stuck. i sit here holding up traffic while i try to make up my mind. people are honking at me, yelling at me. but this is not a decision that can fairly be made split-second. oh no. it is one which requires time, thought, and consideration. but i have to think fast. or shit's gonna start crashing.